ummmm.... pretend that it's New year's day....

2006. wow, what a crazy year. It (& 2005) was both THE most amazing year, AND hardest year of my life. I have learned more things about life than I ever have. I have cried and I have laughed. I have been hurt, and I have probably done some hurting. I have been weak, and overwhelmed, and I have been strong and joyful. It was the most bittersweet year. I’ve learned about loyalty, and love from my AMAZING friends and family.  I’ve learned how to truly forgive when people mess up , as people, including myself will do, and I hope I have been truly forgiven when I have messed up, I have learned what It means to receive Grace and how amazing grace really is . I have learned how to appreciate each moment, and not let a single second pass me by. I have learned that those who are in my life now may not always be in my life, and I have to cherish the time I’m given with them. I’ve learned that, like it or not, life has seasons, and change really is ok. I have learned how to (try) to handle heartache, anger, hurt, fear, and confusion with grace. I have been reminded everyday that I am nothing without my God.  I have learned how to work hard at relationships. I have learned that everyday is a new beginning. I have learned life is confusing, hard, and beautiful all at the same time. I’ve learned that failed relationships is one of the biggest heartaches in life, but when they are mended, or do not fail, they are worth anything else you may have to go through. I have learned that I am not the only person in this world, and compared to a lot of the others, I am stinking blessed. I have learned what it means to love someone, and be loved. I have learned that love is not an emotion, It’s an action. I have learned how important it is to never take someone for granted. I’ve learned how exciting yet scary life can be.  I have learned what mistakes not to make again. I’ve learned how important it is to be me, Amy weaver, nothing else. I have learned that I wont always be important or significant to everyone, but I am to the creator of the universe, and the creator of my own heart. I’ve learned that even if people mess up, there is the possibility of them changing. I’ve learned how important it is to be thankful for everything, and be sure to actually show the appreciation to those that it is due.
I’ve learned how sweet simple, silly little moments are. I’ve learned how important it is to work hard.  I’ve learned that if someone hurts you, it doesn’t mean that everyone you trusted will also hurt you. I’ve learned to be careful with my heart, but not be too guarded and hard.  I’ve learned how important honesty is. I’ve learned how important it is to be humble.  I’ve learned that It’s foolish to make a mountain out of a molehill. I’ve tried to be wise and find God’s will for every aspect of my life, and though I’ve failed a lot of the time, I have learned how important it is to try. I’ve learned how important it is to be an encouragement to others, because it is sometimes the only thing that gets me by when its what I need most.  I’ve learned how quickly life can change, and how badly you can miss it when it does. I’ve learned how important it is to not just be happy, but to have deep, genuine joy, no matter what the circumstances. I’ve learned that I just can’t always understand everything, and sometimes, I just have to trust. I’ve learned how badly some people are hurting, and how to be compassionate. I’ve learned that what seems to be a disaster could turn out to be an even bigger blessing. I’ve learned that life shouldn’t constantly be on the fast track, and its ok to be still and enjoy life. I’ve learned so much this year than I can even write.  I have cried many, many tears, but I have laughed just as much. I have been desperately confused, but I have also been given clarity in other aspects. I have lost things and I have gained things. I have forgiven and been forgiven. Many things have been put into perspective. I appreciate anyone that has ever had my heart, or been in my life.  2007 is a new beginning, a new page. I hope to keep the friendships that I have, and mend the ones that I’ve lost. I hope to do something with what I’ve learned in 2006.

To my AMAZING friends: I would be lost without you. You have loved me unconditionally, NO matter what,  and shown me a new meaning to loyalty and love. I LOVE YOU.

To my family: you have and will be by my side through every step of my life. You are my biggest blessing and best friends.

To those who have given me memories: I will cherish each one of those memories forever, and can’t wait for so many more memories to come in 2007.

To those of you who have hurt me: I forgive you.

To those of you who I’ve hurt: please forgive me.

To failed relationships: I pray that no matter what, you’ll never forget anything we had, and I hope that things can be mended. I will always love you.

To those who have only been put in my life for a quick moment: some of those short, sweet, unexpected times can be the ones that bring the most joy.

Most importantly, to my God: He is my best friend, my healer, my forgiver, my savior, my everything. I would have no reason to live if it wasn’t for Him. Every blessing is from Him, every tear has been wiped away by Him, every lesson has been taught by Him. He is my everything.

2007 is a new year. I hope to love more, forgive more, be healed more, mess up less, laugh more, and never ever let a single precious moment pass me by unnoticed. I hope to be changed, and make the absolute most of my life. Thank you God for new beginnings and new starts : ] …. 2007… Let the fun begin ; ]

( I don't expect ANYONE to read that. I kinda wrote it for myself. you can if you want.. but... the moral of the story is.. uh... HAPPPY NEW YEARRR!!!!! haha ) I love you all!!!!!!

<3 Aim <3